Below are the 2 most recent journal entries recorded in Greg's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, December 4th, 2002
9:02 pm	Random thoughts that you don't give two shits about, but im going to tell you anyhow! First and foremost, mainly so I can close the long-since-used window, let me share with you the shocking discovery that "C" and I made earlier today: Schmagigi: I commented! JnngsPimp: This is why live journal rocks JnngsPimp: ITS SO REVOLUTIONARY! JnngsPimp: Its like a chat program, I can tell you how I feel, whats going on in my life, etc... and then you can COMMENT ON IT. What a unique concept! Schmagigi: and we can have pictures that represent us, too! Schmagigi: Oh wait.. --- There you have it, folks, we have figured out why LJ is so popular. I'll give you a moment to pick your jaws up off the floor. I spent most of the day doing work, reading and AFKing in The Sims. You know, if I end up buying that game, I should get 'IM A FUCKING MORON, I PAID $60 and 10 a month TO GO AFK, WHEN I COULD HAVE DONE THAT FOR FREE' tattooed on my forehead. I have an enormous head, so it should fit. There really isn't much to do in the game right now. Maybe they will add some content before release that makes it more interactive, but as of this moment, unless you're having a conversation (which you could do just as easy and without the lag on AIM) there's no need to look at the screen unless you're 1) click the 'Im back' button or 2) greening (and even that can be queued to a degree). But, its beta, so I still hold out hope that real jobs, bills and other advents will make the game a little more interesting. If nothing else, at least raising body is good for a few erotic moments every night before bed. I continued reading the Lord of the Rings today. For those of you that don't know, I bought and started reading the trilogy for the first time on Saturday. I partook in a guilty pleasure that evening, I ran into the hotel room (In Ohio) opened Return of the King and read the last 5 chapters. I know, I know, its pathetic, but I needed to know what happened, bite me! Despite knowing the ending and having already seen the movie, it is still a very interesting book, if not a bit wordy. Through random reading here and there, I've made it to page 145 (Where they arrive at the Prancing Pony, for those scoring at home (lucky dogs)), and I'm completely engrossed in it. If not for my failing eye sight (don't worry, you'll soon be reading about my lawsuit against Verant for stealing my vision) I wouldn't put it down at all. I know I will not see The Two Towers the day it is released, as I'll be in Orange Park, FL (home town) and I'll wait till Im with some friends to go see it, so Im hoping to be through books one and two by the time it is released. While its clear, even from the little bit that I've read so far, that the movie is not completely true to the book, I think that they did a wonderful job given the time constraints, and I look forward to the last two (movies). I'll end this entry on a more serious note. Have you ever just looked at your life and felt like you're a huge fuckup? I know I have! I was sitting around doing my school work and I started thinking (that's my biggest downfall according to my ex). I'm 22, Im not done with school yet, and I've just dicked away so much of my life (and not even in a good, sexual manner) and now its like, was it worth it? Why did you fuck it up? Why couldn't you just work your ass off and be done with it all by now? And now you're behind and you just wish you could start over. When everything is avalanching on you like that, its a real shitty feeling. The worst part is, I know I let my family down. I had a lot of potential, and after going to University of Florida on a full scholarship, it looked like I was going to live up to it all. Now, instead, I'm just a flop. Its good that I have great, understanding parents, they are the best, and I love them dearly, I just hope I make something of myself before they are no longer around. I guess the sad part is, what kind of teacher would I really make? I couldn't motivate myself the first time around, how the fuck am I going to motivate kids? Sure, I could take a hand gun to class and use that as motivation, but that only works for the first 30 days, and then all your students are dead and there's no reason to keep you on the pay roll. I just hope things get better, and soon. If they get much worse, I might be forced to flip out stab crew style WHAT WHAT? <3 Love always, in a manly, homosexual way, <3 Greg Update #1 - I cannot post my journal. Hardware Failure, not looking good. Update #2 - The colony is getting restless, posting of the journal necessary, I feel eyes watching me, everywhere. Update #3 - Its getting bleak. If I do not post soon, I fear for my life. Joe Bob is getting restless. He keeps looking at me and licking his lips. Update #4 - A gang of sweaty, hairy men, lead by Joe Bob, has surrounded me. They arent speaking, just looking at me, eyeing me up and down, licking their lips. Joe Bob started nibbling at my calf, but I pushed him off. Update #5 - Im still unable to post, they have lit a fire around me. Send help. Update #6 - They've thrown me on the fire, I think they mean to e......... Current Mood: pensive (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 3rd, 2002
12:12 pm	Sleepless in Indianapolis Grimace Happy Love Quote of the day: "you really know how to send me from a great, upbeat, happy mood, to the pits of desolate shit stained hell." The Ex: Greetings and salutations from the land of the hoosiers! What the fuck a hoosier is, I'll never know. Im told that its someone from indiana, but why did they have to be so ego maniacal, when indianan would have sufficed? I just realized that in my first two journals i have many punctuation and capitalization errors. If this bothers you, fuck off. Well, as the subject suggests, I havent slept much. Without getting too deep into my personal life, because, well, someone might actually read this and realize that I'm crazier then I let on, I have an ex girlfriend. Well, I had more, but the others are buried out back. Anyhow, this particular ex and I are weird. We just cannot seem to step out of each others lives. I was asleep around 11 o'clock lastnight when she woke me up. (We no longer live in the same city, so we chat via AIM or phone, this happened to be via AIM) We talked till 5am, at which point I went to sleep. I woke up at 7am, wide awake. Its a good feeling. I guess the problem is that I'm in love with her. For the first time in my life, despite perhaps thinking it at other times, I am truly in love with a person now, and losing her is devastating. You have this sure thing in your mind, you get used to it, you conform to it, you feel comfort in it. And then you wake up one day and its gone. How do you deal with that? How do you get over that? Emotions are such a fickle thing, praised as a great human trait, sometimes they do more harm then good. Whats worse is, she was my best friend. One of the few people that knew everything about me. Whenever anything was wrong, Id go to her. We shared so much together, not just physically, but mentally and emotionally. Now, don't get me wrong, I still have other friends, whom are great and I love dearly, but they arent her. Although I wouldnt mind fucking a few of my male friends till the sun came up! Sure, I go to them and I whine, but its not the same. They don't know all of the background, and thats probably a good thing, otherwise they'd probably run and hide from me. The funny thing is, we both love each other. We both say we share something special. We both consider the other our best friend. Yet, its not enough. Its a foreign concept to me. I do not feel as though she'd lie to me about her feelings, because she's a shitty liar. I would give anything to make it work. Just one more moment in time holding her. To smell her. Feel her. Look into her eyes and tell her how much I love her. Its the little things you miss the most (and the sex). The hardest part now is acceptance. Im going to have to let this go. For her sake and mine. We're killing each other and the time is drawing near when a full break will have to be made. If not, I might end up in a nuthouse. I just don't know if I can do it. I dont know if I'll be able to say adieu forever. Forever is a long time, and I didnt want to spend it away from her. Hell, even arguing all day and night with her is better then nothing. Oh well, if life were easy, it wouldnt be called life! The Apartment: You know, my place is a mess. My bedroom looks like a tornado hit it. Its so bad in there that I've slept in the living room for the past 2 months. Im sure Kyle (The roommate) is getting fed up with me. Too bad. Id clean it, if I knew where to start. But there's just so much shit that I'm overwhelmed. It's sort of like life. Everything just keeps piling up, and when you finally get the motivation to fix it, there's too much to deal with. Oh well, its just a bed room, when I go to move out, I'll burn the place down. The End: The Downfall of the Lord of the Rings and the Return of the King !!! Im original !!! I'll be back here later today to whine. Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Tool - Undertow (Comment on this)